18th February 17
Today I have realised that it’s been just over a year since I became single and I am incredibly proud of myself for that!
Being single is ALWAYS better than being in a super toxic relationship. But of course, it can also be really hard to end that relationship, especially when you feel completely lost in your life.
I have promised myself that I wouldn’t get back to the same person that has hurt me over and over again, the person that I allowed to hurt me over and over again for years. And I knew that I wouldn’t just fall back into a new relationship (holla to having even more of an emotional baggage)
I am proud of myself for sticking to that promise. I am proud of myself for actually focusing on my own wellbeing and happiness! Also, thanks to keeping this promise I’ve been able to actually focus on other people. I’ve actually had that time and energy to give to others rather than to just that one person that wasn’t appreciating it at alll.
Valentine’s Day was earlier this week and no lie, this year was my favourite one so far. I did not have anyone confessing their undying love to me and I wasn’t showered with unnecessary gifts. I did not need that.
For first time in my life, I feel like I’m able to actually have the most self-love towards myself. I always tell others to be kind to themselves and take care of themselves but I never even used to do that. But actually now I am taking care of myself and I am at least trying to be kind to myself! I’m so much more self-aware. I have a lot of things to be grateful. I have been able to connect with so many amazing people in the last year, all those people have added something into my life. I literally feel myself being filled with gratitude, compassion and love. And all I want to do is share that with everyone!
I proved to myself that I can be happy AND single. A relationship will not make you happy if you’re not happy with yourself and your own life.
The most important relationship you will ever have is the one with yourself!
SO much love, Kay <3